Hey sorry it's been forever since I wrote a entry... Things have been crazy. My job is draining all my energy to even sit here and type these things. I work nights now too... up til 7 a.m and it sucks. On to other things... This reallt great guy sent me a message on this web site I have a membership to. He wanted to meet, and told me I should take risks. So I went up to visit him. He is a great guy everything I could ever want in a guy really... only problem is he thinks I'm great, and how I'm the only girl to ever past all his tests with flying colors... but he cant decide between me and this other girl, Laura, who lives in Washington.... It sucks cause I really do like him and I've grown to really care about him.  He also told me that how strong my feelings are scare him... I think I'm doomed in the fact of love... but oh well. Shit happenes, then you die, right?